Im single, but I want a baby! March 23, 2010

There is one thing that has lit the fire under my bum to rush into finding a relationship fast. I know, I know. My past blogs have all been about not worrying about finding that perfect match, to enjoy yourself and take time to fully live life, but there is just this one exclusion that I long to have so bad, that at times I just want to throw in my single-white-flag and shout “Can this just happen already!” That thing is babies. I WANT BABIES! Yes, I know, I am only twenty and some would say that wanting a child at such a young age is preposterous. But have you ever known there was that one thing in life you were meant to be or do? Well for me, I believe I was born to be a mom. I cannot wait until that day. But although I want a baby bad, I realize that I am missing something pretty darn important in this equation. A man. But how important is that really? Although it would be ideal to fall in love with someone and have a child with him or her, to me it’s not so imperative. I know it takes one egg and one sperm to make a child, but do you really need both to raise one?

Okay you are judging me. But when I picture my future, my kids, it is hard for me to envision a man standing next to me fulfilling the role as dad. Maybe it is because I grew up with such a shitty example of one, (blood wise of course. My step dad has done a good job), maybe its because I am lacking in the experience of being in love, or maybe I am just making excuses. For whatever reason I see girls out there bringing up their children alone, and I envy them. Calm down Mom, I am not planning on having any children anytime soon. It’s just a wish I have. One I know will happen one day, but for today I will daydream about the possibilities. The possibility of science figuring out a way to reconfigure my eggs to make a baby sperm free. No male component could be the best baby in the world. Just kidding of course. Don’t take this post the wrong way. I don’t hate men; I appreciate them and know that there are some amazing fathers out there. I just don’t know if I will find one in time to carry out my dream of having 8 children. Or that I even would want to share my parenting role with someone else. This is my view now, and I am sure that by the time I do have children it will change. But am I crazy? Are there others out there feeling the same way as me or can understand where I am coming from? Leave comments, help me ease my mind. Everything’ll Be Alright (Will’s Lullaby)- Joshua Radin

Together alone on Vday February 12, 2010

So this weekend is Valentines Day, and I will be alone. Always alone on this day. Sounds depressing, but really I’m okay with it. And I think that is because I am surrounded by so many that I love, and who love me back, that affections from a lover just aren’t needed. Heck yes, it would be nice. But being single, and being surrounded by my beautiful caring single girlfriends, I still am overcame with the sense of love. Although we are all alone, we are all alone together. And isn’t that what this day is about, celebrating love with those around you? So for now that is good enough for me.

But ladies (and you too gentlemen if you’re reading) I want to share this love story with you.

It’s a Tom’s shoes love story. If you don’t know about Toms shoes, and you should, check out their site here (http://www.tomsshoes.com/default.asp). This love story is about a couple that met because she noticed his shoes, complimented them, and BOOM they are getting married now. They are just so cute. Stories like this give me hope. This is real life, and love does just sneak up on you. It’s not like in the movies where unrealistic things happen that tie two characters together and we see where it is going from the start. No, sometimes all it takes is some shoes.

Sara and Jordan<3

READ the whole story here: http://www.tomsshoesblog.com/http:/www.tomsshoesblog.com/tell-us-your-toms-love-story

So message to everyone (myself included). Stop looking for it! Love will find it’s way to all of us. I know days such as Vday makes you want it more then ever, but know cupid will get you. Take Sara and Jordan unplanned love story for example. That could be you, that could be me! So appreciate the love ones in your life at this moment, and take pleasure knowing your happily-ever after could come any day, maybe even tomorrow.

Someday You Will Be Loved- Death Cab for Cutie