I have never lost anyone before.
You and I had what some may say, a weird relationship. The truth be told, I loved you.
It almost went against everything that we were friends. You were somewhat of a ladies man and I despised any man as cocky as you. But friends we were. You made me feel special. You made so many feel special; a compliment from you was golden. No one will ever make me feel as beautiful, smart, or special as you did.
You were like a brother. Always fun, quick to give advice, and there to cheer me up. There are so many memories of you that I just replay over daily in my mind. Looking back I can see that you and I got along so well because we were so much alike. Skeptics of true love but wanting to believe in it more than anything, secretive of our emotions and even letting it at times get the best of us (you’d punch things and I’d cry like a baby), and we knew how to have a good time. Boy Ty, did you know how to make a party.
There are so many things I want to say to you. So many things I don’t understand. But above everything I hope you are happy, man.
I miss you so damn much. We’ve drifted apart before years ago. But you came back and in fact, I would say our friendship picked up and even grew stronger its second time around. But I have to keep telling myself that this time it will be so much longer until we are reunited.
There will never be a day that goes by that I do not think about you, and I will always, always love you. I hope you stay with us Tyler in any way that you can—that you share in all of our future joys.
Life will not be the same without you. And although you are gone I know our friendship—its love—is stronger then death. This is not an end. So until we do one day meet again, I just hope you know…
I love you Tyler Nathen Smith
Very good Jami. Fuck I miss him.
Me too earles. I know if I am feeling like this…i can only imagine how you are. He truly was “the one, the only..Tyler Smith”. No one will ever be able to replace him. One thing I am so damn thankful is the group of friends he almost seemed to mold and hold together. Without the rest of you guys I have no idea where I would be right now. Yes, the group has had its ups and downs but I know that all of us are going to be together for the rest of our lives and even though one of our members is missing I know that each time we get together whether if that is at a party, a friendly game of capture the flag, or even years from now when one of us gets married-he will be there. He’ll always be.
Earles please let me know if ever you need someone. I’m always here, I hope you know that.
I love you.
It seems as though he will walk through the door any minute. I miss him so much. The days seem to be getting worse not better, but I know I have to keep living. My life will never be the same. I always knew he was special but didn’t realize how he touched other people. I only hope he knew how much I loved him. If only I would have….. TY I LOVE YOU MOM
Jami, this is beautiful. Way up in the sky–from whatever star or cloud Tyler’s on… I know he’s smiling down on you, sweetheart. I know he must have loved you just as much.
One of your best writings.
Honestly, I can’t say I was apart of the group but out of any of “the group”, Tyler made me feel most apart of it at times and he’d even say so when I would call it that. I remember more than a couple times, him telling me that I am one of the group now. Many drunken times he called me his brother.
I’ve never lost anyone like this before either Jami and it’s devastating. I’ve only cried at one funeral before and that was my uncles and while he was still young, he was in his early 50′s.
And I said this on facebook, that the only one I had seen besides Earles was Tyler like three weeks prior. We went to Kick Ass and he acted like it had been a couple days since we had seen each other not a couple months.
Everytime I see a picture, I lose my smile but then I try and think of the couple handfuls of memories I got to have with him in the short two years I got to know him.
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jami, i am glad that you could let everyone know how you feel. and i am sure tyler knew how important he was to you. it is important to remember him, and writing about him is a great way to do it. i love you, and YOU are very important to me.